** february 2016 **

Monday, 2/15/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

President’s Day.  Day off from work.

Sunday, 2/14/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Weigh in – 154 lbs

Awoke to such sad news.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_wna_Rf4wdg

Saturday, 2/13/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

 Weight gain.  157 lbs.

Friday, 2/12/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

11-Feb-2016. Member of a search committee on campus. Discouraged by older women applicants. A reminder for myself. >> (1) Refresh your wardrobe, (2) lighten up that smile, (3) watch your weight.

Thursday, 2/11/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Wednesday, 2/10/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Tuesday, 2/9/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Monday, 2/8/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Sunday, 2/7/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Saturday, 2/6/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Friday, 2/5/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

Thursday, 2/4/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  0.2 lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

(@7:30am) – Awoke.  Forgot to weigh myself.  Breakfast – soup.

(@9am) – Placed an order for more sunscreen powder.  Mini-size so I can carry it more easily.  Went to SPF50 + mist

(@Touro work) – Dr. Liu contacts students – PH614 exam; ExamSoft forums upset over portal update yesterday that was quite disruptive.  Emails from Dr. Lor & Alisa Danyeur – love the buttons.

(@Home) – Dad due to arrive this afternoon.  Been 3 years.

Wednesday, 2/3/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  0.2 lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

(@7:30am) – Awoke.

(Touro – work) – On campus.  Attended faculty meeting.  Admissions numbers down; new legal counsel gave us an overview of accommodation & working with students.  Fascinating.

(Home) – No book orders today.  Email from Dad – he is coming home tomorrow.

Tuesday, 2/2/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.2  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  0.2 lbs gained since the 1st (153.0)

(@7:30am) – Awoke.  Right leg in pain.  Maybe too much exercise.

(Touro work) – Answered an email from Dr. Liu; deleting questions from an assessment.  Dr. Madden has entered his questions into the PH613 exam.

Monday, 2/1/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.0  ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  xx bs lost since the 1st (153.0)

(@3:57am) – Awoke.  Disturbed to think that K is a liar & a hard core porn addict.  H may be right about him.  Creepy.

(Touro-work) – PH605 exam went well.  5 students had to take it by paper due to time constraints.  Will import.  Student JK told me how much it meant to him that Deshon & I reached out to him last fall.  Talked to Deshon about K; says the hard core porn thing is huge and that I must leave him.

(Tecre buttons) – Brought “pharmacy” buttons to campus; a huge hit.  Generated seating charts for Block A exams … a chore.

(Article) – Sexual Addiction May Fuel Codependent Relationships – http://www.hypersexualdisorders.com/sex-addiction/sexual-addiction/

(Quote) – ““There’s no such thing as safe love. Real love means giving someone the power to hurt you.” – Tom / Downton Abbey

(Article) – What does fashion mean to a woman after a certain age? – http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/feb/01/keeping-up-appearances-age-style-older-women-katharine-whitehorn

(Article) – Brain scans of porn addicts – http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2013/sep/26/brain-scans-porn-addicts-sexual-tastes

(@8:30am) – Set up exam table.

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** january 2016 **

Sunday, 1/31/2016 – 168.5 – [ 153.0  ] = 15.5 bs lost since Jan 2011 –  5.4 bs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(Exercise) – 1632 steps.  Took Duff for a 0.5 mile walk to the opposite side of Solano Avenue behind the post office.  2nd walk – around the block.

(Article) – Now think before you click “Like” on social media – http://www.newsx.com/lifestyle/19356-now-think-before-you-hit-like-on-social-media

(K) – Sent email; reached out.  Updated his website.  Response – cold.  Wants to wait until May to discuss things.  For the first time in a long time I see him to be quite cold, calculating and cruel.  Maybe I should leave it be and not see him again.  Maybe he was just a dirty old man with no heart.  Feeling used and abused.  Is he my version of Don McLean?

(H) – Spoke to H about K.  She tells me camigirls is hardcore porn.  Learning more about camgirls.  (Article) – What’s Wrong with being a CamGirl? – http://www.antipornography.org/whats-wrong-with-being-a-camgirl.html

Saturday, 1/30/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =   lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(Exercise) – 3368 steps / 1.12 miles / 33 minutes recorded .  Weight loss minimal; but changes in body felt.  Seems less jiggly & firmer.  Weight training has been difficult; need to continue to walk on treadmill; good weight bearing exercise – @55, I seem to need this.

  • (Early AM) – 15 minutes on treadmill + 30 minutes cycling
  • (12 noon) – 20 minute brisk walk with Duff – Northbrae Community Church, Marin fountain & home.

(Alcohol-free) – Day 7

(Medical) – Day 2 of week 4 of 8 – TriLuma.  Must be mindful of symptoms.  Cushing’s Syndrome & Adrenal issues.  Another day of fatigue.  Eating properly, drinking water, exercises.  Maybe related to the medication.

(Personal) – Ordered (3) silk charmeuse slips from Winter Silks; hopeful.

(K) – Against my better judgment, I helped Klaus and Andrew with the renewal of the Ledge’s domain name; Klaus seemed incapacitated.

Friday, 1/29/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =   lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(Alcohol-free) – Day 6

(Medical) – Beginning week 4 of 8 – TriLuma.  Must be mindful of symptoms.  Cushing’s Syndrome & Adrenal issues.  Another day of fatigue.  Eating properly, drinking water, exercises.  Maybe related to the medication.

(Exercise) – Pedaling over 10 miles per day; 7678 steps / 2.55 miles /  79 minutes.

(Touro) – Working from home.  Watching Mom.  French toast & soup for dinner.

Thursday, 1/28/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =   lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(Alcohol-free) – Day 5

(Medical) – End of week 3 of 8 – TriLuma.  Must be mindful of symptoms.

Pedometer – 3872 steps / 1.28 miles / 39 minutes /

(Work) – On campus @8am.  Phone interviews for recruiter candidates.  3 were very impressive.  Older, layed off workers – difficult.

Wednesday, 1/27/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =   lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(@7:30am) – Without alcohol, went to bed late last night & awoke late.  Day 4.  Body adjusting.

Pedometer – 3355 steps / 1.11 miles / 32 minutes

(Touro) – Working from home; emailed Dr. McCarter;

(Amazon) – Placed Amazon order; sun hats, dog treats, ….

Tuesday, 1/26/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =   lbs lost since Jan 2011 –  lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

(@8am) – Without alcohol, went to bed late last night & awoke late.  Day 3.  Body adjusting.

Pedometer – 2753 steps / 0.91 miles / 28 minutes

(Work) – On campus today; checked in with Dr. Goldsmith; saw students; Deshon has hurt his back; met with Dr. McCarter;

(Texting) – Connected with R; struggling with essay for Evergreen State College.  Her silence is troubling.

(Article) – Inspiring story of weight loss.  ‘I trained for a year and a half, seven days a week, doing two hours a day of weights with my coach, and I would do 40 minutes of cardio on top of that a day.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-3417126/Obese-drops-112lbs-competes-bodybuilder-inviting-people-FAT-SHAME-massive-belly-online.html#ixzz3yMxYd04L

Monday, 1/25/2016 – 168.5 – [ 154.4 ] =  14.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 4.0 lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

Pedometer – 1228 steps / 0.41 miles / 13 minutes

Sad news.  British explorer – complete organ shutdown. :(  ( http://shackletonsolo.org/ )

(@9am) – Check in on mom; she is okay; responding to Dad’s note regarding Martine’s misbehavior.  News not good; but it is good that there is a dialogue between Mom and Dad.  And hopefully resolution soon.

(Diet) – Eliminated alcohol yesterday; today will try and replace coffee with peppermint tea; and eliminate dairy.  Could be difficult.

(Work) – Sent email to MTM regarding upcoming Block A exams and guidelines.

(Rosemary) – Sent her an email regarding mindfulness & making some people ill.

(200pockets.com) – In communique with Jeff Gage, Music Editor of the Dallas Observer.  Would like to reprint some of my Legendary Stardust Cowboy photos.

Sunday, 1/24/2016 – 168.5 – [ 154.2 ] =  14.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 4.2 lbs lost since the 1st (158.4)

Pedometer – 5026 steps / 1.67 miles / 50 minutes

(Weather) – sun struggling to show itself.  East coast snow blizzard moves off shore.  Sorry to hear 20 people lost their lives.

Saturday, 1/23/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =  lbs lost since Jan 2011 – lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 4229 steps / 1.4 miles / 45 minutes

Intermittent rain throughout the day.

(Weekly goal) – Pedaled 102.3 miles in the last 7 days on my InStamina pedaler.  A struggle – but glad I did it.  Hope to do better next week.

(@11am) – Mailed 2 books at Albany post office; then drove to Bay Street to buy sneakers and puppy dog kibble.  Despite being overcast; had peeling on my upper lip.  Frightening.

(InMotion pedaler) – Day 6 of pedaling 10 miles per day.  Difficult to do.  Not sure I will ever be able to do more than 10 miles per day.  Though a seated exercise and not weight bearing; believe it is still beneficial

(PM) – Began book scanning early books.  Need to do a few per day.

Friday, 1/22/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =  lbs lost since Jan 2011 – lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 7576 steps / 2.51 miles / 74 minutes

(@6:15am) – Awoke.

Hope Mom is better today.

(Quote) – On the death of James Rockford.  “”There are few people on this planet I have adored as much as Jimmy Garner,” Field said Sunday. “I cherish every moment I spent with him and relive them over and over in my head. He was a diamond.”

Thursday, 1/21/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =  lbs lost since Jan 2011 – lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 2857 steps / 0.97 miles / 31 minutes

Working from home.  Received messages from Dr. Goldsmith & Deshon – “Are you okay?”  Will stop in and talk with Dr. Goldsmith on the days I am on campus …. Deshon said I was missed at Charity Yamada’s baby shower this afternoon.

From Dean Matsumoto – Will conduct initial telephone interviews next Thursday, 1/28/2016.  Looks like I will be on campus next Tuesday and Thursday.

(11am-1pm) – Took Mom to Wells Fargo Bank, Albany post office and Ranch 99 (for grocery shopping), Bev Mo (for gin).

(3pm) – Drove to Pinole – Returned books to Michael’s Craft Store; returned unused HDMI cable to Best Buy.

(6pm) – Fell asleep in the living room while pedaling.  Went to look for Mom; she was lying down outside the garden sliding door; drunk again; “What do you want?  GET IT!”  Repeat of old behavior.  I think shopping was too much for her.  Glad we didn’t go to Costco as we had earlier planned.

(Article) – Secret to a long life – music & martinis – http://www.cbsnews.com/news/100-year-old-pianolayer-shares-secrets-to-a-long-life/

Wednesday, 1/20/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =  lbs lost since Jan 2011 – lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 1536 steps / 0.51 miles / 15 minutes

Awoke extremely tired; asked Mom if we could postpone the Ranch 99 and Costco shopping.

Worked from home.  Dr. Heimer requests a February 1st – ExamSoft quiz.  Created.  Need to know if it is a AM or PM quiz.

More email correspondence from the search committee – eager to hire someone.  Initial telephone interviews tomorrow.

Mom says she will go to Wells Fargo Bank to withdraw some cash; then will mail the books.  Crossed signals/memory loss – @4:45pm she said she thought I was going.  I dash out to get the books mailed.

Tuesday, 1/19/2016 – 168.5 – [  ] =  lbs lost since Jan 2011 – lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 2300 steps / 0.76 miles / 23 minutes

On campus.  1pm – P2T4 ExamSoft quiz.  No Deshon.

Monday, 1/18/2016 – 168.5 – [ 154.8 ] =  13.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 7772 steps / 2.58 miles / 83 minutes

Exercise – Treadmill, Jillian Michaels fitness DVD with weights.  Difficult!

(Article) – Viagra cinema? – http://www.theguardian.com/film/2016/jan/18/peter-bradshaw-michael-caine-youth-robert-de-niro-viagra-cinema

Sunday, 1/17/2016 – 168.5 – [ xxx ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 10,174 steps / 3.38 miles / 106 minutes

Saturday, 1/16/2016 – 168.5 – [ 154.8 ] =  13.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 2875 steps / 0.95 miles, 28 minutes

(@8am) – Awoke naturally.  Ellie sleeping on my bed.

Friday, 1/15/2016 – 168.5 – [ 155.6 ] =  12.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.2 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 972 steps / 0.32 miles / 10 minutes

(Article) – Facebook & The Fear of Missing Out – https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/in-one-lifespan/201510/facebook-and-the-fear-missing-out-fomo

(Article) – Keeping Death in the Dark – http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/jan/15/death-in-the-dark-david-bowie-jackie-collins-secret-terminal-illness

(1-4pm) – Visited Fitness Superstore in Benicia, California.  Took Duff.  Warehouse workers very helpful; a good outing for Duff.  Fascinating to visit such a large business park.

(PM) – Evening rain.

Thursday, 1/14/2016 – 168.5 – [ 156.8 ] =  11.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.6 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 678 steps / 0.22 miles / 7 minutes

(@8:30am) – Awoke to the sad news that Alan Rickman has died at age 69.  3-winning tickets drawn for the PowerBall lottery.  Florida-California-Tennessee.

(9-10am) – Took a hot bubble bath.

(Health) – Day 7 of steroid medication.  Difficult to know if medication is working.

(11am) – Called jury duty hotline.  Excused from jury duty at 1pm.

Headed into campus to administer P1 PH608 quiz.  Seating chart.  One student not on the chart.  2 students had technical problems; took paper.  Long talk w/Dean Matsumoto.  Talked about new recruiter position.

Wednesday, 1/13/2016 – 168.5 – [ 157.4 ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 6886 steps / 2.28 miles / 73 minutes

(3:45pm) – Mom has 2nd laser eye treatment.

Messaged Heather; sent her a PDF of family documents so she can get a replacement social security card & passport.

Heather gets her wisdom teeth removed.  Out of pocket expense: $314.

May have to serve jury duty tomorrow.  Called in at 5:30pm; need to call back at 11am.

Tuesday, 1/12/2016 – 168.5 – [ xxx ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 10,816 steps / 3.59 miles / 114 minutes

(On relationships) –

What I have found in our relationship is that we both round-off our edges in our differences. Am I ever going to love football or jazz? Maybe not, but I love my husband enough to go to the occasion jazz concert and to watch his favorite team play. Does he love how honest and straight-talking I am? Maybe not when it is happening, but he knows when it comes from a place of love.

Some differences are good. Other differences are deal-breakers. Figure out what is what for you. If you’re looking for a perfect fit for you and exactly who you are, you’re out of luck. Keep your ground on the things that matter, learn to have soft edges on the things that don’t matter, and you will find a fit.

http://theeverygirl.com/feature/im-an-everygirl-and-ive-changed-my-mind-about-marriage

Monday, 1/11/2016 – 168.5 – [ xxx ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 4457 steps / 1.48 miles / 48 minutes

Sunday, 1/10/2016 – 168.5 – [ xxx ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer – 11,384 steps / 3.78 miles / 124 minutes

Saturday, 1/9/2016 – 168.5 – [ xxx ] =  xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer = 2559 steps / 0.85 miles / 27 minutes

InMotion Compact Strider – 50.8 miles

(@9:30 am) – Awoke.  Very tired.

Mom okay; reflecting on this generation & values.

(Rosemary) – No contact.

(Heather) – Messenger messages about her grandfather and immense disappointment.  I assure her that secrets are okay.

(Afternoon errands) – eggs, orange juice, Albany post office,

(Network Solutions) – Renewed 100pockets.com domain for 1 year.

(Paid) – Citibank VISA.  Nearly $5000.  Included R’s tuition for the spring semester.

Friday, 1/8/2016 – 168.5 – [ 156.0 ] = 12.5 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.2 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer = 3167 steps /1.05 miles / 34 minutes

(@7:24pm) – Awoke.  Overcast and grey.  Clear skies.  No noticeable change on my face.  No redness.

(@9:30am) – Finished 36 minutes on InMotion Compact Strider.  2803 steps (pedals), 400 calories, 10 miles.  A good start to the day.

(@9:00am) – Completed 50 miles on the InMotion Compact Strider.  Exhilarating.

Thursday, 1/7/2016 – 168.5 – [ 156.2 ] = 12.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs gained since yesterday

Pedometer =

(@7:24pm) – Awoke.  Overcast and grey.  Clear skies.

(@3pm) – Stopped by Kaiser Pinole to pickup Tri-Luma cream.  $170.  Expiration – 2017.  Must be refrigerated.

(Health) – 1st evening – Tri-Luma.  Didn’t realize that Triluma was recalled in August 2010; and only recently back on the market.  New version requires refrigeration.

(@7:15pm) – Completed 14.9 miles / 4200 steps / 63.5 minutes / 600 calories / – on InMotion Compact Strider (elliptical stepper).  Great exercise.

(@10:15pm) – Completed  30.2 miles / 8478 steps / 29:36 / 1211 calories / – on InMotion Compact Strider (elliptical stepper).  Great exercise.

(@11:15pm) – Completed 36.0 miles /

Wednesday, 1/6/2016 – 168.5 – [ 155.4 ] = xx bs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer =

Torrential rain throughout the day.

1st day of new skin care regimen.  Took 40 minutes.

(Task) – Email and called Bryn Mawr Financial Aid & Merrill Edge; $2500 check lost; stop check issued & new check will be sent.

(@1:30pm) – Drove out to the Albany post office & to get gas for my car.

(@3:45pm) – Mom has laser surgery to remove scar tissue from her eyes; vision vastly improved.

Stamina InMotion Compact strider (stepping machine) arrives.  Larger than I had thought.  Very well built & very smooth.  First effort seated – 48 minutes / 419 calories burned / 2936 steps / 10.4 miles (distance).

Tuesday, 1/4/2016 – 168.5 – [ 154.6 ] = 13.9 bs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.4 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer =

(8am) – Awoke to rain.  And to discover that R has left.  Following her texts on VerizonWireless.  Thought she was with Nat; but she is not.  Offered to take her to San Rafael … no reply.

Monday, 1/4/2016 – 168.5 – [ 156.00 ] = 12.5 bs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.4 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer = 2575 steps / 0.85 miles / 27 minutes

Mom wakes up even angrier.  After 10+ hours of talking; she reveals she hates being blind and dependent.  R takes a 10 hour walk; comes home but is silent.  Hugs me tightly before bed.  A final goodbye.

B drinks no alcohol.

Sunday, 1/3/2016 – 168.5 – [ 157.4 ] = 11.1bs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.8 lbs lost since yesterday

Pedometer =

(7:45am) – Awoke to Duffy barking.  Huge weight loss.  A day of pure protein yesterday was beneficial.  No-carb diet kicking in.  Other observation – exercising earlier in the day perhaps improves metabolism?

(Quotation from LiveStrong.com) – “To lose 1 pound of body weight each week, create a calorie deficit of 500 calories every day, either by cutting calories from your regular diet or increasing your level of physical activity.”

(@8:11am) – Finished lazing around in bed.  Now up and dressed.

(@10:09am) – Completed 45 minutes on the treadmill.  4112 steps / 1.36 miles / 45 minutes.  Watching Galaxy Quest (1999 movie) on NetFlix.

(@10:14am) – Begun cleaning in H’s room.  More paperwork to shred!

(@1:48pm) – Finished 35 minutes on the treadmill.  7306 steps / 2.42 miles / 1 hour + 15 minutes total.

(@5-7:30pm) – Mom very drunk and angry,  Falls down in the kitchen & on the landing.  Throws things and knocks down the commerce computer.  Emailed Dad for assistance.  Got Mom to go to bed at 7:30pm.  Yelling and screaming.

(@8:33pm) – 7775 steps on pedometer / 2.58 miles / 86 minutes recorded.

Saturday, 1/2/2016 – 168.5 – [ 159.2 ] = 9.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs gained since yesterday

Pedometer = 4032 steps / 1.34 miles / 44 minutes.

(7:30am) – Awoke to three book sales.

(Quotation) – Thanks to Xanax and alcohol, I can’t remember the majority of it, ….

(Article) – How Ketamine Infusions Saved My Life – http://motherboard.vice.com/read/how-ketamine-infusions-saved-my-life

(@8:30am-9am) – More cleanup & paper shredding in H’s room.  Feeling liberated.

(@10:18am) – Finished 32 minutes on treadmill.  3042 steps / 1.01 miles.

(Article) – Dating at Middle Age – Why Bother? – http://omgchronicles.vickilarson.com/2014/01/15/dating-at-middle-age-why-bother/

(Article) – Being tied down to an ailing old man …. – http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2694913/Any-woman-MAD-marry-60-Whats-point-tied-ailing-old-man-asks-LIZ-HODGKINSON.html

(5:30pm) – Dinner – Egg omlet w/arugula and feta cheese + Trader Joe’s frozen quesadillas.

(Article) – Back in the Game: Dating in your 50’s – http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2014/aug/23/back-in-the-game-dating-in-your-50s

(Article) – Is Being In Love A Distant Memory? – http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/jan/02/where-did-happily-ever-after-go-and-can-you-get-it-back

(Article) – We Were Married, but no sexual attraction.  http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2015/nov/21/we-were-married-but-there-was-no-sexual-attraction

Friday, 1/1/2016 – 168.5 – [ 158.4 ] = 10.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

10,355 steps / 3.44 miles / 1 hour + 43 minutes on treadmill.

Consumed = no alcohol, french toast & white bean and chicken soup

(7:45am) – Awoke.  Tired from being sick last night.  But considerably better.

Trying to understand porn addiction.  From Wikipedia – “Problematic internet pornography viewing is viewing of Internet pornography that is problematic for an individual due to personal or social reasons, including excessive time spent viewing pornography instead of interacting with others.”  Interesting.

(Article on aging) – http://www.cnn.com/2015/12/30/opinions/drexler-carrie-fisher-aging-well/

(Disturbing article) – http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/ranks-isis-recruits-include-mentally-ill-n488891

(@9am) – R wakes up.  Admits to taking a beer to bed.  Got ill and vomited at 4am.  Had a nightmare about me dying & something about having plastic surgery done to her eyebrows.  Source – a combination of my appt with a cosmetic dermatologist & her grandmothers upcoming surgery.

(@9:45am) – Decided to really start cleaning H’s room.  Been 5 years.  Need to stop procrastinating and get this done.

(Obituary) – Singer Natalie Cole, 65 dies.  http://www.latimes.com/local/lanow/la-me-ln-singer-natalie-cole-dead-20160101-story.html

(Obituary) – MASH start Wayne Rogers dies at 82.  http://www.cnn.com/2016/01/01/entertainment/obit-wayne-rogers/

(@11am) – 30 minutes on treadmill.  Watching Star Trek: The Next Generation on Netflix.  2894 steps / 0.96 miles.

(@12:20pm) – Back from 20 minutes of sawing fallen palm fronds.  Just a few more to do.

(@12:45pm) – Happiness is Ted sending me a Happy New Year message.  He has been such a good friend to me.

(@12:59pm) – Placed my Amazon order.  Most items will arrive next week.

(@1:30pm) – Trimmed Duff’s nails; R taking him for a short walk.  Need to trim the fur between his toes and pads.

(@3:41pm) – Finished another 30 minutes on the home treadmill.  6111 steps recorded on pedometer  / 2.03 miles / 66 minutes of activity recorded.  Need another 30 minutes before the end of the day.

(@4:36pm) – Sad story about the death of a South Berkeley man.  Rescuers had difficulties rescuing him as he was a hoarder.  http://www.dailycal.org/2016/01/01/berkeley-man-dies-fire-south-berkeley-residence-sunday/

(@7:15pm_ Finished 1 hour and 43 minutes on the treadmill.  10,147 steps recorded on pedometer / 3.37 miles.  Exercise goal reached.  Tired.

(@7:30pm – 11pm) – Bridget and Rosemary do massive cleaning in H’s room.  B uses a Google spreadsheet file to list milestone events in her life – which allows the “paper” to be discarded and shredded.  R is scanning and throwing away paperwork as well.  Setting a goal to get this done.  Making the 1st day of 2016 a positive one.

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** favorite phrases **

“I never shake hands with a wonderful man.” – Donna Reed Show

(Quote) – ““There’s no such thing as safe love. Real love means giving someone the power to hurt you.” – Tom / Downton Abbey

At his age, there is one thing he misses. “If I could have sex again … after all, I’m 100 (years) and 6 months old.” – Irving Fields

“There are few people on this planet I have adored as much as Jimmy Garner,” Sally Field said Sunday. “I cherish every moment I spent with him and relive them over and over in my head. He was a diamond.”

Because neither wants to upset each other, they do not discuss their struggles. – Susie Hammond

If speaking is silver, then listening is gold. – Turkish proverb

Be kind and gentle in your dealings with others.

“I wear the chains I forged in life.” – A Christmas Carol

I don’t think anyone intentionally choses someone who’s obviously a loser. They just aren’t seeing the person like that.

Change is the process of all existence. – Star Trek ( Let that be your last battlefield )

For now, we believe wearables can be our companions, but the early signs of a technology takeover are there, questioning the sustainability of the current relationship. Whether we want to or not, we are slowly, but steadily, transforming into a new human species. Enter: homo cyberneticus. (Source – http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/wearable-fitness-trackers-the-dark-side-a6787171.html)

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** december 2015 **

Thursday, 12/31/2015 – 168.5 – [ 159.2 ] = 9.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

10,071 steps on pedometer.  3.34 miles.  1 hour + 40 minutes on treadmill.

Awoke early.  R wakes up late (8:45am); annoys her grandmother

(Email) – from H.  Offers to room with R after college.  Also talked about Bryn Mawr spring invoice.

(Work) – Opted to use 6 hours of personal time for today + 2 hours holiday from Dr. Hopkins.

(@10:15am) – Reported missing New York Times newspaper.  Website temporarily unavailable.

(@10:30am) – R taking Duff II for a walk.

(@10:45am) – 30 minutes on treadmill.  3234 steps / 1.07 miles / 33 minutes.

(Errands) – Milk, orange juice, dog and cat food, kitty litter, detergent,

(@11:29am) – Mom resting her eyes.

(@11:30am-3:30pm) – Running errands with R.  Tried to go to El Cerrito Recycling – closed!  Target – super long lines – …. to Marshalls (wallet for H) … tried to go to KFC (EBMUD crew on site) …. then home.

(@3:30pm) – Mom took a bath – very cold.  Needs to eat more protein.  To burn calories and stay warm.

 

Wednesday, 12/30/2015 – 168.5 – [ 160 ] = xx lbs lost since Jan 2011 – xx lbs lost since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 10,025 steps / 3.32 miles / 107 minutes **

Mailed PG&E rebate paperwork.

Albany post office – 2 books mailed + rebate.  No line.

CVS – Purchased non-fragrance soap to mitigate melasma.

(Dinner) – Mom cooks delicious brisket – cubed with tendons in Chinese hot pot.

Tuesday, 12/29/2015 – 168.5 – [ 157.4 ] = 11.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.4 lbs lost since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 3941 steps / 1.3 miles / 40 minutes **

(7:00am) – Awoke.  Weigh in @157.4!!  Thank you Richard Simmons!!

(2pm) – LG washing machine delivered.  Great team effort.  Luis (delivery guy) agreed to install the new washer on the old LG base unit.  Fortunate we still had the original screws from 10 years ago.

(Kaiser) – Successfully made appt with Cosmetic Dermatology in Walnut Creek.  Will see me Tuesday, 1/5 at 11:45am.

Monday, 12/28/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.8 ] = 9.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 7396 steps / 2.45 miles / 73 minutes **

(5:30am) – Awoke.  Weigh in 158.8 lbs.  Back on track; though still have 20 lbs to go.  Covered R who had lost her blankets during restless sleep.  Took Duff out; still he does poop in the kitchen!  Coffee.  Chicken-boiled.  Moved Honda CR-V to street parking to make way for Best Buy delivery of LG washer on Tuesday.

(6am) – Clocked in.  TouroOne portal.  6am to 2pm today.

Emailed Deshon, Dean Matsumoto and Dr. Goldsmith – Jan 6, 13 (lasik surgery) + Jan 14 – Jury duty.

Completed one online training course for Touro; having difficulty with the 2nd course.

(Errands) – Albany post office; shorter line – mailed 7-packages + mailed property taxes.  Drove to Best Buy in Pinole to confirm LG washing machine delivery tomorrow (12-2pm); bought wireless Sony DVD-Blue-Ray player so I can do fitness DVDs in the living-room.

(7pm) – R and I do 2-hours of Richard Simmons workouts.  Love the disco workout.

(10:07pm) – Shockingly sad story.  Makes me wonder about K.  Lead singer of the metal band Motorhead is dead at 70; 2 days after being diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer.    http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-3376979/Legendary-rocker-Lemmy-Kilmeister-dies-aged-70.html

Sunday, 12/27/2015 – 168.5 – [ 159.6 ] = 8.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 1.9 lbs gained since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 1652 steps / 0.55 miles / 17 minutes **

(8am) – Awoke naturally.  Massive headaches persist.  :(  Weight gain due to eating icecream cake.

(11am) – Took Duff to puppy play at PetCo; no one showed up – cancelled.  Duff gets a dog oreo cookie from a delighted clerk.

(1pm) – Activated replacement HTC One smart phone.

(Favorite quote) – “I believe music should be an event,” Adele said. “For me, all albums that come out, I’m excited about leading up to release day. I don’t use streaming. I buy my music. I download it, and I buy a physical [copy] just to make up for the fact that someone else somewhere isn’t. It’s a bit disposable, streaming.”  Read more at http://www.inquisitr.com/2659682/adele-talks-why-she-turned-down-spotify/#ocZPyHzuFQlUWKh7.99

(4:30pm) – Dinner.  Eggs on rice w/sausages.

(5:08pm) – Watching PBS series Father Brown Mysteries.  Wish I could teleport.

(6:00pm) – Watched Miss Fischer’s Murder Mysteries on PBS.

(6:51pm) – “For now, we believe wearables can be our companions, but the early signs of a technology

takeover are there, questioning the sustainability of the current relationship. Whether we want to or not, we are slowly, but steadily, transforming into a new human species. Enter: homo cyberneticus.”

Saturday, 12/26/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.0 ] = 10.5 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.2 lbs gained since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 2863 steps / 0.95 miles / 30 minutes **

Weigh-in – 158 lbs.  A bit disappointing.  But I did not exercise yesterday.

Spoke to LG repair man; given that our washing machine is 10 years old – he recommended we purchase a new machine.

(Afternoon) – R and I go shopping for a new washing machine.  Bought a LG washing machine @Best Buy, Pinole, CA.  $736.00.  Put on R’s Chase VISA card for $150 rebate, will also get $150 rebate from PG&E.  Scheduled to be delivered next Tuesday.

(2pm) – Long line at the Albany post office.  Mailed 3 books; worked the door for a little while.  Saw Eve.

(PM) – Ate two pieces of ice cream cake.

Friday, 12/25/2015 – 168.5 – [ 157.8 ] = 10.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.6 lbs lost since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 1059 steps / 0.35 miles / 12 minutes **

Christmas Day.

(@6:30am) – Awoke naturally.  Super frigid in the house.

(@8:51am) – Article – Penpals & the true meaning of Christmas – http://metro.co.uk/2015/12/22/my-80-year-old-penpal-helped-me-realise-the-true-meaning-of-christmas-5580083/

(Sad news) – http://journalism.berkeley.edu/news/2015/dec/24/uc-berkeley-journalism-teacher-and-new-media-pione/

(Article) – Why We Need to see Death and Decay – http://www.theguardian.com/science/blog/2015/dec/18/why-we-all-need-to-see-death-and-decay

(Quotation) – “Research by the University of Kent and the Association for Psychological Science indicates that “thinking about mortality in a more personal and authentic manner may make (people) think more about what they value in life.” This philosophy even gave rise to Korean Funeral therapy which was very recently in the news again.”

(Comment) – From The Guardian (UK) – Comment regarding spending Christmas alone – Guardian Pick

“To all those spending Christmas alone. Particularly those who perhaps wish they weren’t. Have a lovely day and treat yourself. If you’re having trouble making friends yr not alone in that respect. I had a period of my life where anxiety issues were so severe I wouldn’t see anybody. Those were very lonely times indeed. I wish you all the best”

(@8:45pm) – Off to bed.  Pedometer = 1059 steps / 0.35 miles

Thursday, 12/24/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.4 ] = 10.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

** Pedometer reading = 5275 steps / 1.75 miles / 55 minutes **

Christmas Eve.

Awoke naturally @7:04am.

(Feeling) – Super tired.

(@8:00am) – Spoke to Mom; she just wants R to have choices.

(@8:42am) – R up.

Day of intermittent rain showers.  Errands run with R – Last package mailed from Albany post office; no line.  Wished Marta well for the holidays …. Kaiser Pinole to pick up prescription; saw student Amrit Bains! … Music Works, Richmond (exchanged ukulele books) …. Grocery Outlet ($1.99 bacon!), Bev Mo and home.

R takes Duff for a walk ….

Working on Common App to transfer ….

Purchased music notation software – TablEdit v2.75 for Windows ($59.95).  Hoping to transpose music for R on the ukulele.

(@6:28pm) – Happiness is receiving a message from Ted to Rosemary.  Math equations.

(Dinner) – Quiche, sweet potatoes, chili, stir fry broccoli

(@8pm) – Finished 38 minutes on treadmill.  Watching NCIS.  5275 steps / 1.75 miles / 55 minutes total for the day.

(9:53pm) – Nice article about a Touro College of Pharmacy student – http://www.timesheraldonline.com/general-news/20151224/former-touro-student-returned-to-vallejo-to-open-pharmacy

Wednesday, 12/23/2015 – 168.5 – [ 159.2 ] = 9.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011

** Pedometer reading = 3145 steps / 1.04 miles / 33 minutes **

Awoke at 1:45am and at 4:30pm.  Forced myself to return to bed.  Awoke at 8:00am.

Weigh in @159.2 lbs; a little disappointing to have gained 1 lb; though my stomach area is noticeably reduced.

(Touro New York) in contact regarding my TouroOne account.

(@8:30am) – Mom’s computer display on the commerce computer not working; switched out some power cords.

(@11am) – Post-op dental appointment at Berkeley Oral Surgery.  Heating pad, syringe to rinse her mouth, mouthwash diluted, medication ….

(@2pm) – B visits Music Works in Richmond to buy ukulele picks and books; purchased electric Fluke solid body tenor ukulele.  Owner reveals she is closing the business; her husband is dying from esophageal cancer (WAKE UP CALL!).  What are the changes I would learn this?

(BCPM News) – Tenants at 1990 Berryman give notice.  Moving out 31-January-2016.  BCPM eager to rent.  Believe they can get $5000+ per month due to rising Berkeley rents.  Reminder – Iron staining on side of the house must be fixed.

(@1:55pm) – Access to TouroOne fixed.

(@2pm) – Pedometer = 1973 steps / 0.65 miles. :(

Mom writing cheques.  Will send R to Wells Fargo to make a deposit to cover property taxes due.

(@End of day) – 3145 steps / 1.04 miles / 33 minutes for the day

Tuesday, 12/22/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.2 ] = 10.3 lbs lost since Jan 2011

(@3:45am) – Awoke naturally.  Put myself back to bed.

(@6:08am) – Now awake.  Weigh in at 158.2.  Slow weight loss.

(@7:00am) – Breakfast: steamed cabbage, canned mackerel in tomato sauce, black coffee.  Trying not to put milk in my coffee (due to extra carbs)

(@7:34am) – More cleaning in H’s room; feel like I am making good progress with R’s help.

(@7:37am) – (15) extended arm lifts w/(2) 3 lb weights while standing – H’s room.  Difficult.

(@9:02am) – Made post-surgery appt w/Berkeley Oral Surgery for tomorrow @11am.

(@9:15am) – B carries Luxo magnifier lamp downstairs in hopes of giving Mom some relief for her eyes.

(Touro news) – Early leave of 2 hours given for 12/24.

(@9:28am) – R orders refill of Retin-A.  Ready for pickup at Pinole Pharmacy – Thursday, 12/24 after 12 noon.  Relieved.

(@9:35am) – (25) standing bicept curls w/(2) 3 lb weights while standing – H’s room.  Felt okay.  Still a struggle.

(@9:40am) – R takes Duff for a walk.

(@9:46am) – (10) side arm extensions w/(2) 3 lb weights while standing – H’s room.  Tough.  Weak arms.

(@10am) – (20) minutes on the treadmill.  Watched NCIS on Netflix.  2.5 to 2.8 mph.  2429 steps / 0.80 miles.

(@11am) – US Post Office, Albany + Thai lunch w/R.  Bought magnifiers from Barnes & Noble for Grannie.  Handheld magnifier is the best.

(@2pm) – Returned unused page magnifiers to Barnes & Noble.  Refunded credit card – $25.00

(@3:15pm) – Pedometer 3413 steps / 1.13 miles

(@3:38pm) – (50) over the head stretches/lifts w/weighted bar + (25) weighted bar lifts while lying on the floor.  – Livingroom

(@4:30pm) –  R investigating ways I can exercise while watching television.

(@4:40pm) – (100) seated bicept curls w/(2) 3 lb weights + (20) over the head tricept arm exercises w/6 lbs of weight

(@7:55pm) – R practices her finger picking on the Fluke ukulele.

Sang Scarborough Fair w/Rosemary playing the ukulele.

(@9:23pm) – Heading off to bed.  Watching NCIS and reading Mandolin for Dummies book.  Pedometer = 3835 steps / 1.27 miles / 40 minutes.

Monday, 12/21/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.6 ] = 9.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011

(@3:30am) – Awoke naturally.  Went back to bed …. awoke well rested at 7:45am.

(@7:45am) – Weigh in at 158.6 – 0.2 lbs lost since yesterday

(@7:51am) – (10) seated bicept curls w/(2) 5 lb weights – on the bed

(@9:45am) – R and I depart home to meet Ted at Bay Street to see the 11am showing of Star Wars: The Force Awakens.  Mixed feelings about the movie.  Ted was very sweet to the two of us.  Spoke about Flipper; seems to be in high demand like Dead Kennedys – yet must be mindful of the individual schedules of the lead singer & bass player.  I wish him well.  R is also charmed by him.

(@6pm) – Leftovers for dinner.  Duff does poop on stairs.  R takes Duff for a walk when the rain has lessened.

(@8:05pm) – 15  minutes on treadmill @2.5 miles per hour.  Pedometer = 3069 steps / 1.02 miles.

(@9:15pm) – (50) bicept curls – w/(2) 5 lb weights.  In bed.

Sunday, 12/20/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.8 ] = 9.7 lbs lost since Jan 2011

(@5:30am) – Awoke naturally.

(@5:48am) – Wonderful article about “Mr Typewriter” – http://www.chestnuthilllocal.com/2015/12/18/turn-back-the-clock-typewriter-man-now-in-mt-airy/

(@8:15am) – (100) over the head lifts with weighted exercise bar – living room.  Pedometer @65 steps.

(@8:30am) – R wakes up.  Taking a bubble bath.

(@8:35am) – (10) standing bicept curls w/(2) 5 lb weights – upstairs foyer.

(@9am) – Started to clean Heather’s room with Rosemary’s help.  Very helpful to have her helping me.

(12 noon) – Verizon appt w/Hendrick.  Best news.  Manager intervention.  Sending a brand new HTC One M7 phone (replacement); will see him next Sunday @11am to transfer Rosemary’s phone.  No charge.

(@5:20pm) – (50) seated bicept curls w/(2) 5 lb weights – sitting on coach in the livingroom.

(@7pm) – B steps in Duff poop – upstairs.  Frustrating.

(@7:24pm) – (20) – 10 on each side – dumbell side bend (obliques) – p.191 – w/a 5 lb weight.

(@7:32pm) – (10) Warm-Up (Dumbbell Swing-Through (Most Large Muscle Groups) – p.192 w/a 5 lb. weight..

(@7:42pm) – (10) Hip Rolls (Obliques) – p.197 w/a weighted bar

(@10pm) – Pedometer – 2208 steps / 0.73 miles

Saturday, 12/19/2015 – 168.5 – [ ?? ]

(@8:30am) – Awoke.  A bit tired.  Busy day ahead.

(@12 noon) – Took R to see Hendrick.  Confusion with appointment; rescheduled for Sunday.  Sabrina (most kind!) swaps out SIM card in our two HTC One phones; Used Verizon transfer tool to move data.  R now has options to upgrade -or- stay with the HTC One.

(@3pm) – Drove to Best Buy in Pinole to see options in regards to a replacement PC laptop.  Saw the Surface Book (gorgeous); opted for a Windows 10 Lenovo Yoga 14, i5 w/256 SSD.  $999.  $1500 w/tax

and warranty.

(@6pm) – Hammacher Schlemmer package arrives.  <3 Microabrasion tool.  Uncertain about the eye tool.  May return.

3101 steps / 1.03

Friday, 12/18/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.4 ] = 10.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.2 lbs lost since yesterday

(@6am) – Awoke naturally.  Tired, but feeling okay.

No time for exercise today.  Ate of piece of ice-cream cake. :(

(@6:22am) – Adele – a once in a generation artist.  http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/how-adele-owned-2015-in-just-two-months-20151217?page=5

(@6:23am) – Love Ed Sheeran.  http://www.mtv.com/news/2084071/ed-sheeran-songs/?xrs=s.wb_rs

(@9am) – Administered Track 2 Block C P1/P2 exams.  Dr. McCormick, Dr. Mookerjee.  P1 student had her car stolen …. fortunately came to campus 30 minutes early so could be accommodated.  P1 student Corina Fontelera arrived at 9:09am; running late –  contacted Dr. Young via text.

3846 steps / 1.27

Thursday, 12/17/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.6 ] = 9.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.2 lbs lost since yesterday

(@8am) – Monitoring T1 Block C exams from home.

1435 steps / 0.48 miles

Rosemary’s wisdom teeth surgery – 1pm.  Copay – $99

(Work) – Track 1 Block C P1/P2 exams.  Dr. Lopes, Dr. Keppler.  Will monitor exams from home.

Wednesday, 12/16/2015 – 168.5 – [ 158.8 ] = 9.7 lbs lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs lost since yesterday

2828 steps / 0.94 miles

(5) squats with (2) 2 lb weights

(100) weighted bar chest presses (lying on the floor) w/gentle situps w/knees bent

(15) bicept curls (seated on couch) with (2) 3 lbs weights

Free weight exercises

(6:25am) – Awoke naturally.

(6:55am – Weigh in – 158.8 lbs.

(7:08am) – Headache.  Maybe too much weight loss.  Dietary changes?  Concerned about how ugly I have become; noticeable.  Not sure what will happen as I lose more weight. ….

Campus study day – working from home.

(8:30am) – Took (3) Ibuprofen.  Chicken soup for breakfast.

(11am) – Received HTC One Rugged case(s) from Amazon Marketplace dealer.

(12:31pm) – Called Verizon at 800-922-0204 to cancel SamSung Tab 2 service.  Recommended I do this on Saturday, 12/19 to avoid early termination fees of $60.

(2:30pm) – Meet Rosemary at Daimo; met her friend Nat & his father Fez.  Very nice.

(5pm) – Brought Panda Express chinese takeout home for dinner.  Stayed up until 3am talking with R.  Wept over Duff.  Discussed college plans.

2828 steps / 0.94

Tuesday, 12/15/2015 – 168.5 – [ 159.6 ] = 8.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.8 lbs since yesterday

Diagnosis – depression.  Feeling okay.  Tearful.

@9:46pm – 2827 steps / 0.94 miles / 28 minutes

(0) squats with (2) 2 lb weights

(110) weighted bar chest presses (lying on the floor) w/gentle situps w/knees bent

(20) bicept curls (seated on couch) with (2) 3 lbs weights

@5:51am – Weigh in = 159.6 lbs !!!

(4:45am) – Woke up naturally.  7 hours of solid sleep.

(5:13am) – Responded to a student who is requesting a seat accommodation.  12:37am e-mail.`

(5:33am) – Rosemary announces she has a boyfriend.

(AM) – Early departure for campus.  Ideally pre-7am.  Arrived @8am.

(9am) – Administer Track 4 Block C exams to 210 students; need to meet with 42 students for T4 assessment removal; seating chart posted at 8:35am (late); P2 student had problem w/computer

(10am) – Gifted (2) tomato hats to a P2 student expecting twins.  Gifted a pumpkin hat to Dr. Kirkpatrick

(9:50am) – Email from Andy Mason ; request for guidance regarding domain registration; will look into that – after exams.

(10:07am) – Linda and Andy expecting in February 2016!  Will send them a gift.  Andy chooses a blueberry hat.

(1-2pm) – Employee training for new payroll time-sheet system.  Room 118 – Library building.  Did not attend.  Watched video training & downloaded 25 page PDF directions.  Now awaiting credentials from Touro New York.  This Friday will be the last day using the LATS system; transitioning to Banner.

(On Health) – Is your face “puffy”, as opposed to being fat? Puffiness can be caused by poor nutrition, salty foods, lack of sleep, alcohol or drug intake, lack of exercise, etc.

Monday, 12/14/2015 – 168.5 – [ 160.4 ] = 8.1 lbs lost since Jan 2011 – 0.2 lbs lost since yesterday

  • @9:48am / 3016 steps / 1.03 mile / 31 minutes / 0 minutes on treadmill
  • (20) squats with (2) 2 lb weights
  • (100) weighted bar chest presses (lying on the floor) w/gentle situps w/knees bent
  • (100) bicept curls (seated on couch) with (2) 3 lbs weights
  • (5am) – Awoke naturally.  Bubble bath.  Weighed in @160.4 lbs.  Had hoped for more.
  • (9am) – Administer Track 3 Block C exams to 210 students; need to meet with 42 students for T4 assessment removal.
  • (12:30pm) – Assisted Dr. M with previewing an ExamSoft assessment; required re-installation of SofTest.
  • Talked with Dr. Ellerby over assessment concerns.
  • (12:45pm) – Talked with Dean Matsumoto; Dean’s Chocolate List; exam concerns.
  • (1:30pm) – Left campus for home.  Picked Mom up and went to Ranch 99 to do some grocery shopping.  Found the store under-stocked; no brisket.
  • (3:15pm) – Albany post office with Mom; long line.
  • (4:47pm) – Happiness is receiving a text message from Heather; asks for our holiday cookie recipes as she would like to bake peanut butter cookies for Chris & his family.
  • (6:28pm) – Received more test results from Kaiser.
  • 3104 steps

Sunday, 12/13/2015 – 168.5 – [ 160.6 ] = 7.9 lbs lost since Jan 2011

  • @7:55 pm / 79 minutes on treadmill / 7086 steps / 2.35 miles
  • (10) kitchen counter pushups
  • (50) weighted bar bicept curls
  • (100) weighted bar chest presses (lying on the floor)
  • (30) squats with (2) 3 lb weights
  • (60) squats with (2) 2 lb weights
  • (40) bicept curls (seated on couch) with (2) 3 lbs weights
  • Awoke naturally @5:43am.  Weigh in @160.6 lbs / 38.5% body fat.  A concern.  6 hours of solid sleep.  Ellie sleeping at the end of my bed.  Mom & Duff not yet up.  Eerily quiet outside; no rain yet.  2 inches of rain expected + 40-50 mph winds on the coast.
  • (Info) – “Increased facial adiposity [fat content] is associated with a compromised immune system, poor cardiovascular function, frequent respiratory infections and mortality. So, even a small decrease can improve one’s health.”
  • (Info) – For women between age 20 and 40, 19% to 26% body fat is generally good to excellent. For women age 40+ to 60+, 23% to 30% is considered good to excellent.  For men between age 20 and 40, 10% to 20% body fat is generally good to excellent. For men age 40+ to 60+, 19% to 23% is considered good to excellent.
  • (Family) – Mom woke up cheery.  A few memory issues; asks when R is coming home.  Thought it was Monday not Sunday.  Reminded me to get petrol for the car (but I went earlier in the day & had told her). Concerned. ….
  • (Work) – Queried ExamSoft database to check on the status of the Triple Jump grading; making progress
  • (12:30pm) – Beautiful article.  How I would like to die – http://www.statesmanjournal.com/story/news/health/2015/12/12/life-well-ended/76793038/
  • (12:48pm) – Brave article.  Photographing while fat – http://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-34967928
  • (1:15pm) – Accidentally cut Duff w/trimming scissors.  Fashioned a bandage for his arm.  :(
  • (5:20pm) – Article of menopausal fat – http://www.everydayhealth.com/menopause-pictures/ways-to-beat-menopausal-belly-fat.aspx
  • (8:12pm) – How much weight do you have to lose before someone notices? – http://www.cbsnews.com/news/how-much-weight-must-you-lose-before-people-notice/
  • (To Do) – Need to buy gas.  Take a bath, pack for work, work on taxes, college financial aid for R.

Saturday, 12/12/2015 – 161.8 lbs

  • 12,192 steps / 134 minutes / 1 hour, 54 minutes on the treadmill.
  • Awoke naturally @5:30am.  Going to sleep at 11:30pm.  Right shoulder pain.  Took 4-Ibuprofen.
  • Weighed in @161.8.  Discouraging.  Must persevere.  Pedometer reading at end of day = 12,192 steps / 4.04 miles / 134 minutes.  90 minutes on the treadmill today.  Started early.  Took a bad fall – foot got stuck in the dog gate; fell on both knees carrying dinner dishes.  Scared Duff.  Iced knees, then did 40 minutes on the treadmill @2.2 mph.
  • Watched a Christmas Carole (1935) on Netflix.  “I wear the chains I forged in life.”
  • (Family) – Received nice email from R.  Worked in garden; finished cleaning up wind damage; put up blue tarp for Duff & the impending rain storms.
  • (Work) – More emails about COP blog; initiated by Dr. Madden; pharmacy job opportunities sent to Dr. Sasaki-Hill.
  • (Sad) – Death of a kind person who befriended & helped us at Chatham Univ.  R received the news from Hannah.  http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/postgazette/obituary.aspx?n=sharon-sloan-lewis-sommer&pid=176862639

Friday, 12/11/2015 – 160.6 lbs

  • 10,096 steps / approx. 3.5 miles / 90 minutes 
  • HEALTH – Weigh in @160.6 lbs.  Ate low-carb.  Pedometer = 10,096 (approx. 3.5 miles).  Logged 90 minutes on the treadmill.  Thinking about what H said; must add cardio routine to the mix.  Need to go back to the Richard Simmons & Carmen Electra DVD fitness tapes. :(
  • FAMILY – Awoke to find the house & backyard garden in disarray.  Overnight storms – blew out a living room window & topped items in the garden.  Broken watering can in front.  Fern fell off steps.
  • Berkeley Orinda Oral Surgery called; Joseph confirms that dental insurance will cover the $2100 cost for Rosemary’s wisdom teeth extraction; copay is $99.  Such good news.
  • WORK –

Thursday, 12/10/2015 – 160.4 lbs

  • SLEEP –
  • HEALTH – Day 6/150 off Facebook; feeling more relaxed
  • FAMILY –
  • Mom – short term memory loss; over feeding the dog (double meal).
  • @2pm – Took Duff to get a bath at Pet Food Express in Berkeley.
  • WORK – Study day on campus; P1 students take OSCE

Wednesday, 12/9/2015 – 160.8 lbs

  • Paid by credit card online.
  • WORK –

Tuesday, 12/8/2015 – 159.2 lbs

  • SLEEP –
  • HEALTH –
  • FAMILY –
  • WORK –

Monday, 12/7/2015 – 158.2 lbs

  • 11:30am – Kaiser Pinole appt.  Therapist.  Offered psychiatric services at Kaiser Richmond.  Diagnosed with depression.  Will start with a January evening class; Wednesday nights at 6:30pm.
  • Mom’s 80th birthday.  Bought an ice-cream cake from Grocery Outlet.

Sunday, 12/6/2015 –

SLEEP –

HEALTH –

FAMILY –

WORK –

Saturday, 12/5/2015 –

SLEEP –

HEALTH –

FAMILY –

WORK –

Friday, 12/4/2015 –

  • 50 minutes on the treadmill.
  • Texted K for I was worried about him.  Said we needed to talk.  I call him from my cell phone; sounded terrible; needs a break; wants to put the past behind him and concentrate on his health. Will withdraw from Facebook for 150 days to give us both a respite.
  • Submitted LATS timesheet

Thursday, 12/3/2015 –

  • 11:30am – Kaiser Permanente Pinole appointment w/Dr. Deng.  Blood tests, appt to meet with a therapist; tearful visit
  • Paid $3227 for the Spring 2016 semester for R at College of the Redwoods

Wednesday, 12/2/2015 –

 

  • K – 2 hour appt w/therapist Martha

Tuesday, 12/1/2015 –

  • 5331 steps / 1.77 miles
  • Pledge sent to Klaus

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** on health **

  1. Is your face “puffy”, as opposed to being fat? Puffiness can be caused by poor nutrition, salty foods, lack of sleep, alcohol or drug intake, lack of exercise, etc.
  2. Wearable devices are useful for keeping track of my daily steps and sleep patterns.
  3. Japan’s Ministry of Health, Labour, and Welfare recommends walking 8000 to 10,000 steps daily.
  4. UK National Obesity Forum recommends 7,000 to 10,000 daily steps to stay moderately active.
  5. Research has shown that wearing a fitness tracking wristband did help overweight postmenopausal women increase their activity levels by nearly  40 minutes (and 789 steps) a week; ** Wearing a pedometer did not have such an effect.
  6. Walking 10,000 daily steps is a required movement
  7. Walking is a superfood.  It’s the defining movement of a human.
  8. (Study) – Found that daily walking reduced the risk of stroke in men over the age of 60.
  9. (Study) – Walking for at least 1 hour or 2 could cut a man”s stroke risk by as much as 1/3, and it didn’t matter how brisk the pace was.
  10. (Study) – Taking a 3-hour long walk each day slashed the risk of stroke by 2/3.
  11. Walking will only help you get physically fit if you’re starting out very out of shape.
  12. You can break your daily steps into any size increments that work for you.
  13. Research even shows getting up and walking around for 2 minutes out of every hour can increase your lifespan by 33 percent, compared to those who do not.
  14. Regular daily walking helps to counteract the effects of too much sitting.
  15. Sitting for too long has been found to increase your risk of death from virtually all health problems from Type 2 diabetes and heart disease to cancer and all-cause mortality.
  16. Within 90 seconds of standing up, the muscular and cellular systems that process blood sugar, triglycerides, and cholesterol – which are mediated by insulin – are activated.

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** my life **

1960 – Bridget is born

Born March 15, 1960 to Suzette and James Chin-Bow, New York City.

Younger sister – Ottavia Canfield Storer (b. 2/7/63) and Martine Hu Canfield (b. 11/25/59).

1961 – Bridget (1)

1962 – Bridget (2)

1963 – Bridget (3)

1964 – Bridget (4)

1965 – Bridget (5)

1966 – Bridget (6)

Lived in Portugal – near Sintra Castle; remember red heart cut out window shutters on the rental  home.  Mom drove a Volkswagen Beetle; windows that would break during rain storms.  Two-story home had ceramic tiles d on the roof.  When it rained and we had a leak; the repair man would come and move the tiles; moving the leak elsewhere.  Benjamin and Belinda were two rabbits we were given as gifts (they were meant for the stew pot!); we kept them as pets.  George had an accident where he fell off a ladder.  He lay on the ground perfectly still for a few days.  Bright orange calendulas grew in the garden.

19??

Moved to Concord, Massachusetts.  460 Powder Mill Road, Concord, MA 01742.

1977

(June) – Bridget graduates from Concord-Carlisle High School.

(August) – Bridget commences studies at Mills College, Oakland, California

1981

Bridget begins work for PSDI (Project Software and Development, 14 Story Street, Cambridge, Massachusetts 02138).  Program Librarian.  Worked for them until 1989.

1989

Grannie and George depart for California.

Closure of the family business – Hooper-Ames.

House (51 Frost Street, Cambridge, MA 02140) is sold; Tavi and Tracy move to Sommerville.

Mom secures a rent control apartment for Bridget – 6 Agassiz Street, Cambridge, MA.  Beautiful studio apartment – period details; corner apartment overlooking a historic park.  Rent – $190 a month.

1991

(June) – Bridget marries Ian Clyde Davies of Whakatane, New Zealand.  Whirlwind romance.  Tiffany diamond ring.

1992

(June) – Bridget marries Ian Clyde Davies of Whakatane, New Zealand.  Whirlwind romance.  Tiffany diamond ring.

1993

(June 5) – Heather May Davies is born in Whakatane, New Zealand.  Difficult birth.  Monitor indicates fetal distress – Ian steps in and works with nursing staff and doctors.  C-section.  9 lbs, 8 oz.

1994

(June) – Martine is attacked with a hammer by her husband.  Attack not told to Bridget so as not to affect the birth of Rosemary.

(June 28) – Rosemary Helena Davies is born at Central Baptist Hospital in Lexington Kentucky.  Dr. Vigh.  Superb surgeon who repairs damage from New Zealand c-section.on

(July) – Grannie visits Bridget in Harrodsburg, Kentucky.  During a confrontation with Ian; she is struck and dragged out of the house.

1995

(May) – Tornado destroys our Harrodsburg, Kentucky farm.

(Fall) – Ian and Bridget divorce.

1999 – Bridget (39)

Bridget graduates from University of San Francisco.  B.S. Computer Information Systems, GPA 3.94.  Honors.

2005

Move from Winters, California farm (32560 Russell Boulevard, Winters, CA) to Berkeley, CA (1809 Marin Ave., 94707)

Heather and Rosemary attend Albany Middle School.

2015 – Bridget (55), Heather (22), Rosemary (21), Grannie & George (80),

B – continues to work for Touro University California – College of Pharmacy

Duff I dies of liver cancer; B spends the last weeks with Duff in the living room.

B steps in – and assists Dean Matsumoto with ACPE accreditation.

Charity replaces Anne Davis.

(March) – B flies back to Pittsburgh to drive Rosemary home from Chatham Univ.

R enrolls at Berkeley City College; in the fall would transfer to College of the Redwoods in Eureka, CA

Duffy II arrives from Minnesota

(November) – B gets new Samsung Galaxy S6 Edge+ smart phones from Grannie and George.  B finally gives up her Microsoft Kin for a Droid Turbo 2; K falls apart – yet another break.

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on relationships

Except we never have sex. And we never fall in love. We fall into almost love and then life takes us away from each other. And without that memory of skin against skin to connect us across distance and time, we become, once again, strangers.  – NY Times article: On Tinder, Off Sex.  http://nyti.ms/1k7I98L

Jackie says:

I enjoyed reading all the different perspectives here. I am 61. I am in great health. I work too much because I have very little money- was divorced from a crazy husband 11 years ago who destroyed me financially- not that there was very much, but what little there was gone and he ran up debts behind my back that made the economics even worse. I had different work/employment plans that I have never been able to do due to just having to work to make ends meet. Ex ran off in the middle of the youngest’ s first year of college, also had to deal with a pile of debt that was new to me that took years to get rid of.
OK- have gone out with men and had some pretty serious relationships. I will be very blunt- I am not willing to deal with a lot of health and body issues of men over 60. Sexually, it is not great most of the time- and that is not me not liking sex- just get tired of performance issues…. Also, health- long term health issues are from long term bad eating and living. It catches up. Like many women, I raised my children, ran a household and worked as much then as I do now.
I simply want a friend to do things with, have a meal with and not have to be a caretaker or to meet what many of my friends call the “established menu”- meaning that quite often with men, they had an ideal when they were 30, it did not work and now they are attempting to have that again… what is so stupid about this is that it could be the freest time they could have and they do not want to budge from their limited scope.
I am educated, I am a great cook and very funny- but I am 61, do not want marriage- but would love to have a great friend. At this point, I am about to throw in the towel.

 

Blog – Dating at Middle Age, Why Bother?  http://omgchronicles.vickilarson.com/2014/01/15/dating-at-middle-age-why-bother/

the definition of “secondary abstaining” I discovered through my Google search, I would add the following to the list of reasons someone may stop having sex: failed relationship, broken heart and being cheated on after a near proposal by the man you spent your whole life loving.  – NY Times article: On Tinder, Off Sex.  http://nyti.ms/1k7I98L

Dating 50-year-olds. Most of them aren’t really that hot. It’s a monumental adjustment. And you don’t get that rush you get when you date in your youth. It feels so very different.  But make the date low key and lower your expectations. It’s not a bad idea to do something you’ll enjoy even if the date doesn’t work out. The worst that can happen is that you will still have had a nice time.  http://www.high50.com/dating/first-date-with-a-man-over-50-and-a-reality-check-omg-im-dating-my-dad?utm_source=HuffPo&utm_medium=Blog&utm_content=Post35&utm_campaign=Link2

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november 2015

Monday, 11/30/2015 –

1826 steps / 0.61 miles

SLEEP –

HEALTH –

FAMILY –

WORK –

  • B on campus today.

Sunday, 11/29/2015 –

6154 steps / 2.04 miles

SLEEP –

HEALTH –

FAMILY –

WORK –

Saturday, 11/12/2015 –

161.8 lbs.  Feeling discouraged.  But must continue.

SLEEP –

HEALTH –

FAMILY –

WORK –

 

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